just dropping by, it’s been a while since i last posted on this blog, hopefully when i get the hang of this new life i embraced, i will try to resume my passion for blogging. one more disappointing thing, my desktop is down, looks like my power supply for two years is now demanding a retirement but i dont have the money to replace.
some thoughts of entering the seminary again – it was a joyful entrance and once you’re in, the real work of becoming holy, to learn to die to oneself, and learn to embrace the life of a disciple is but the many challenges you face inside the seminary. to follow jesus is to take one’s cross and learn to journey with your brothers and sisters in love, mercy and forgiveness. this kind of discipleship is not limited or confined with the religious life, it is also asked in married life and single blessedness.
to die to one’s self and embrace love, mercy and forgiveness as jesus told us in the gospels is a lifetime task. others due to its immense power to change one’s life, embraces martyrdom, suffering and even tribulations. but with such a challenge, god never leaves us alone in this fight. we have the holy spirit and communion of our brothers and sisters who, embraced the same ideals, shares their very selves in the service of God’s kingdom.
as i follow christ in the footsteps of john eudes, i constantly revisit this call i heard from god especially in times of great loneliness and burned-out. this is the wellspring where i find rest and security, to realize that god who calls me in this kind of life will always sustain me if only i will be faithful to him. easier said than done, there will be nights and days when you want to cry and look for him and he seems to hide his face, but like a person crazy in love, i constantly call out God’s name and presence, watching and praying..
god, in your great goodness and mercy to me, you called me to this life. i rest my soul to your bosom, heal my sins, cleanse me from my selfishness. grant me the grace to follow you in the world today, that i may serve my brothers and sisters in mercy and compassion, i ask this in jesus, your son and with the holy spirit. amen.