Tomorrow, the 9th of the month of May, in the year of the Lord Twenty Fourteen, I will turn Thirty Six. Time flies so fast and somehow it keeps you grounded as you learn to let go and hold on to things you hold dear and detest in life. I remember reading somewhere that hindsight is 20/20. I agree with that, as we age every year, time of recollections and retreats offers an avenue to review what went about and what was. Lessons learned and hopefully we learned something out of it, bad or good.
As I enter my Thirty-Six, I am also facing a new page in my life. I will enter again formation and now with the Eudist Fathers. This opportunity came as a grace from God for a second try to fulfill that innate call I heard to serve Him in the Catholic Church. I am blessed and full of gratitude as I recall the events that lead me to this point. All the while, these past years that I am working, my vocation to the priesthood was but silenced deliberately in my consciousness brought about by past wounds that tend to hurt to the present. But God is gracious and good, the silence I imposed on His call crawled silently on my consciousness and keep on throbbing on my daily life. In the end, I gave in and allowed God to work this time and let the Spirit move and let it guide me where to go and what to do.
The way lead to the Eudist Fathers, where mercy and evangelization was the way of life. They are just new here in the Philippines but full of hope to begin their work where the Spirit of God is sending them. The same Spirit lead me to their gates and after a year of praying and discerning with them, I am now ready to be a candidate and live with the brothers of the community. The next four to five years will be crucial, and I am praying sincerely that I may find God’s will in my life.
I entrust these coming years to the loving mercy of God and Mary, Mother of Mercy. As I form myself in the image of the Good Shepherd, I may find my calling to be a reflection of God’s mercy to all and offer my life as a sacrifice in bringing God’s Kingdom here on earth. With Mary, the model and exemplar of love, faith and hope, may my will be in conformity with Jesus, my Lord and God.